I can't imagine myself ever with a girlfriend. I can talk to girls normally,but once I find a girl I like its terribly hard for me. Im totally afraid of rejection , who would want me anyway? I am totally undesirable.Nobody would wan't me.Its a fact that I have to live with,I would do anything for a girl.But there's no chance for that. I am totally weird and loud and random and stupid and sad and creepy. Im not goodlooking,almost ugly. Im not good enough for any girl,Im not good enough for myself. I dont like what I see in the mirror,nor do i like to see myself doing anything.I feel like smashing a rock onto my face to see if it would help me in any way.